Well had 1st Taxotere today.
Was sat waiting for N at revolving doors, feeling very down and anxious, when both N and S walked round corner. I was sooooooooooooo happy they were both there. I got all teary when I saw them, then S gave me a card which made me cry more.
We went to the ward, got shown to chair straight away, the after a lot of 'nothing' happening, I had to remind them to switch cold cap on, so we then had to wait for it to get to right temperature.. Once they put on the cold cap, I was in tears - after just 5 minutes. I felt like ripping it off, but managed to keep it on. The chances of keeping my hair with this chemo, using the cold cap, are really quite high, so that kept me going. The thought of losing my hair again, and looking like a cancer 'victim' does nothing for me so stubborn old me kept going.
Thank you N and S for coming with me and keeping me company and making an unbearable day a lot more bearable.
I just hope the cancer responds to this chemo - keeping everything crossed.
This is my story, as a 42 year old, young woman, living with terminal breast cancer.
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