SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY

Well today is the day.
Suzie has been home from her dads, opened her pressies, which she loved, and is now away to pub.  Now waiting for dad to come and get me to take me to pub to 'set it up', before she, and others arrive about 7.

I think and believe, I am actually more excited about today than Suzie is.  Dont think she truly understands what it means to me to still be here and celebrate this day with her, and still be so well too.

I am going to be cracking open the champagne tonight, even tho Suzie does not like it.  It has got to be celebrated.

This is one landmark, that I am very very happy to still be here for.  Not looking for the next one, just gonna enjoy the here and now, its the only way to live.

Love and happiness to anyone who may read this - FEEL THE LOVE XXXXXXXXXX

The eve of Suzies 18th

Well today is the eve of Suzie's 18th birthday, and how happy am I??  Words cannot express.

Did I think, 2 years ago I would be alive to see this - absolutely not.

Tomorrow, I am going to have to take her '18th birthday present box' , out of her memory box, and hand it to her, and I am going to be so so happy to do it.  I opened the box last week, and shredded the letter that was in the box.  No need for a letter, cos I am here to say everything I want to say.

Tomorrow is going to be a extra special happy day, and I cant wait.

I love you loads Suzie, and am going to be the happiest person alive tomorrow.

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School Reunion

Well.......................had school reunion last night.  Met F and P outside Monkey House and the 3 of us went inside.  So much for a reunion, 2 blokes turned up - the 3 of us couldn't remember them :), they left after an hour, and there was just F, P and I left.  Even the guy that organised it didn't turn up - very poor show, BUT, the 3 of us had an absolute blast.  Have not seen F or P since last reunion when we were 30, and I don't even remember them being there.  It was like we have been friends all these years, never stopped yapping and laughing the whole night.  Lots of alcohol, lots of laughs, and another great memory :)
Thanks girls, and we are definitely going to make it a monthly thing.
Pic of the 3 of us below
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Feel Like a New Woman

Posting today to say I feel soooooooooooo much better.

Was thinking yesterday why I felt so shitty, when ALL my bloods came back fine - the endless runs, nausea, and worsening headaches.  I was given Acupan for pain relief for my back maybe 6 weeks ago from GP.  This was to take along with paracetemol instead of non steroidals like ibuprofen and diclofenac, as not REALLY meant to take non steroidals with my heart pill.  Had read the side effects of Acupan when I got the drug, but never thought any more about it, or absorbed the info (obviously).  Thinking on what had changed, decided to re- read leaflet, and amongst possible side effects was diarrhoea, nausea/vomiting, and yes headaches.  My headaches were getting worse, so I was taking more of them, hence felt more nauseous and worse headaches. 
After reading leaflet  yesterday lunchtime (I had taken last tabs first thing yesterday), I decided to stop these pronto and see if it made a difference.  As day went on yesterday felt bit better, but still went to bed with headache, woke up today with very mild headache, no nausea, and energy, and felt hungry!!!

So I am ready to rock and roll, and will never take them again.
Have We Will Rock You in theatre tonight, out for tea before, and tomorrow night I have school reunion, which at beginning of week, was doubting I was going to attend, even tho I have been soooooooooo looking forward to it.

Its a lovely day today, and I feel re-energised (altho still tired), but all in all, much better, and not so worried as I was.
Bring it on :):):)

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Feeling bit shitty really

Had one of my best mates girlie weekend away for her 40th just outside Aberdeen, so not far away.  I had been feeling dodgy last few weeks anyway, with lots of little niggles, but so far nothing showing up on bloods or anything.

Managed to have a good time when away, altho very tiring, and I came back yesterday, a day early, as just couldn't cope with any longer - very tired etc.  My nausea is increasing, and I just feel yuck. 

The nurse forgot to do clotting last week so got phone call to go and get more bloods done tomorrow.  Still waiting for coeliac disease blood test to come back.

I just hate feeling tired and sick all the time.  I have We Will Rock You this Friday and school reunion on Saturday, and so so hoping to be able to do both.

Anyway, enough moaning for now.
I have posted a couple of pics of the weekend - 1 of the view from our lodge decking - which was absolutely stunning , and one of me in the hot tub - which was blood lovely.

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Bloods and Friends

Got phonecall from D today - all my bloods so far (only 1 more to get back) are fine, so no explanation to all my niggles etc.

I heard last night that one of my online friends, who I have never met, but do consider a friend, has been dx with spread to the brain.  We have had conversations about this, and that would be my worst nightmare.  I am angry for her, and angry at this horrible disease.  She has a hubby and a 4 year old child, and is about my age.  Horrible, bastard indiscriminate disease - HATE IT.  I dont think why very often, but WHY all the good people in this world.  Its just so unfair.

Also waiting for my other friend S to get results of her scans, and she has to probably restart chemo.  Its just so shit and unfair.

Should be happy about my bloods, but just thinking of my friends
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