19th February 2009

What a week its been.  When I woke up on Saturday I felt very weak, severe headache and vomited.  Phoned chemo helpline who advised G Docs.  Couldnt face speaking on phone so text N to ask her to come over.  I was pretty frightened.  This was the first time I have felt ill ill as an emergency.  N had also phoned S so she came in the road too.  GP came at 2 and gave me more anti sickness, tramadol and trimethoprin for UTI which I didnt have any symptoms of apart from low grade fever.
The girls were both on night shift but didnt want to leave me alone so they got a hold of C.  She came up straight away and took charge - in a nice way.  She came back at 5 and said she would come back at 9pm, but I had to phone her before as was sick again and felt really bad.  She phoned G Docs again who came out and got me admitted to hospital as needed IV Infusion and stronger analgesia.
Ended up in hospital for 3 nights and I couldnt complain about the care.  Even though CT scan was clear, consultant agree to do MRI of head to make sure.
Even though I have been in hospital as emergency, consultant was still keen for me to come back and get chemmo tomorrow, due to the aggressiveness of the cancer, and my blood counts are ok.
I waited till I got home till I phoned and told Suzie about it, which she was ok about, but think she got a real scare and was asking lots of pertinent questions.  I couldnt give her answers to lots of her questions, as I just didnt know.
Obviously my trip to Norwich was cancelled which I was well upset about.  G and D were both upset too and have booked to come up in April to see me - bless them.

I phoned neighbour (F) on Sat when I was first ill as SOS to take Millie out.  She was fantastic and came round this evening with some soup.  I am very quickly learning that if people have offered help, they genuinely mean it (well I know the people who do), and I am getting better at asking for help when I need it.
T took me home from hospital.  Everyone is being fantastically supportive and generous - it is very heartwarming.  Thanks to all of you - you know who  you are.