Reflexology and alternative/adjuvant therapies

I am still finding myself in my dark tunnel, and still cannot see a way out.  I am so desperate to get out of this I will try anything.
I had reflexology at CLAN today.   I started going back there 2 weeks ago, so this was my second session.  I do find it relaxing.  I asked my therapist after session if she felt anything with me during my treatment.  She said she had felt 'crunchiness' where my back and shoulder points were.  She then said she felt nothing with my head, so I obviously don't get headaches.  I told her I have been getting a lot of headaches, and some of them migraines.  She then asked if I had had any migraines since the last session, and on reflection I don't think I have.  I am going to have regular reflexology in the meantime - about every fortnight so I hope this will help.
Whilst at CLAN, the therapist told me about a book she had been reading called 'You Can Heal Your Life' - using different methods, so I went up the the CLAN library and got it.  As I think I have already said, I also bought yoga DVDs, which I have yet to summon up the energy/enthusiasm to do, but I am so keep to try to help myself with alternative, as well as conventional therapies, that I am open minded about trying anything.  Incidentally, I also found a book entitled 'Chemo Brain', which is actually quite interesting, and put paid to a certain paediatric oncologist, that chemo and cancer do in fact affect the  brain, so chemo brain does exist - if only she had every had either, she may have understood more!!!!!
I have to go over to clean dads flat tomorrow (thorough clean), as he has just had a new kitchen and bathroom installed so the place is a mess.  I am not looking forward to it, as its gonna require energy, which I will have to pull from somewhere.  I think I will banish him to the common room, put on my ipod and just try my best.  I have booked myself in for a full body massage with N for a treat to myself after.

I suppose what I am trying to say is, I feel I am doing everything in my power to help myself out of this darkness, but just none of it is working at the mo.  I suppose I am being impatient, and expecting too much from myself, so I must be conscious of this, be more compassionate towards myself, listen to my body, and just try to 'live' with the way I am feeling just now, whilst at the same time, do things that will help me reach my ultimate goal - accepting my situation and living a happy life again.
So here goes.....................................