Bad Day

Today has been a bad day - physically.
It seems to be morning and early afternoon I am at my worst and as day goes on from about mid afternoon I start to feel better.  I was meant to start next cycle of chemo today, but when chemo nurse phoned to check everything was fine and if I was coming in for it, I said "if you force me".  Then on questioning she suggested I have an extra week off.  Basically my week off, which is meant to be my better week, has been spent on toilet - not pleasant, so she recommended an extra week off and see if I feel better and get a bit more energy.
Was in at garage and felt shit, then went and met S and L for a coffee in town.  I really didnt have the energy to go, but I went and glad I went, cos I aint seen S in ages.  At least we were sat down for most of it and not traipsing about town.  Then went and met C and J for tea - didnt feel so 'yuck' but very tired.
I do remember feeling like this when I first started on chemo, and know I had a 2 cycle break, and chemo nurse said I might notice side effects worse to start with, but I an 25% less a dose than when I first started, and just feel shitty.  I know my depression will not be helping, but I cant help but feel my body is rebelling and shouting NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO more.
I just dont know what to think.........................

On the plus side, we were out for tea for J's birthday, went to TGI's - managed to embarass her by getting a cake and they came and sang to her :):)  Happy birthday J