28th June 2009

Had L and R's wedding yesterday.. Had a fantastic day - thank you so much for inviting me.  And of course, I had managed L's request and not died before :)
Congratulations to you both, hope you have a long, happy and healthy life together.
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22nd June 2009

Saw Take That in concert in Glasgow. Went with Suzie, N and S.  They were fanbloodytastic - was on a high the whole gig.  Its the biggest concert Suzie has been to - so she really enjoyed it too.
Day after gig was 21st June - my baby turned 16!!!!!!!!!!!  We all woke up in Glasgow and sang happy birthday to her and of course she got to open all her pressies.

7th June 2009

I have been feeling a lot better physically and of course mentally.  I am feeling quite cheery.

Going out for tea for S's birthday then the next thing on the cards is TAKE THAT!!!!!!!  Really excited about that one - will be down in Glasgow for Suzies birthday - with take that the night before - yeeehhaaaa grandma

29th May 2009

Had clinic today.
ACTUALLY GOT GOOD NEWS :):):)
Couldnt believe it, but there has been some reduction in size of all tumours, nodes etc so we continue on with this one, with another scan after another 3 cycles. 
I have cried on and off the rest of day - but happy tears this time.
It was fantastic to be able to tell Suzie good news for a change.  Dad and N came with me to clinic.

22nd May 2009

Well Suzie, thats you and I been to London again.
We saw Blood Brothers (which you loved Suzie, even tho you refused to come in Aberdeen!!), Lion King - fantastic, and Mamma Mia.  They were all brilliant in their own way, but my fave has to be Lion King - I hope I can see it again before I die.
Trips like this really do exhaust me, but they are so worth it.

I have a CT Scan this coming Monday to see if this chemo is working. I managed to forget about it in London, but now I am home its all I am thinking about.  I am so scared this chemo is not working.  Will then have to wait till Friday for the results.

10th May 2009

I have not written anything for a while as I have been feeling very negative so didnt see the point in writing.  I try to shield things from Suzie when I feel like this but its not easy.
Each day, both mentally and phsyically is so different - sometimes I get a good couple of days, then feel crap again - its not easy this living with cancer business!!

I have now finished the letters and memory boxes for everyone that I want to.  They are all sealed up now.  I had to do this for my own sanity.  I still have another letter to do for Suzie, thats going to be the hardest, and why I have put it off.

I have booked for Suzie and I to go to London again - for 3 nights.  Seeing 3 shows, but not telling Suzie which ones, and we are staying in a spa hotel so we can chill through the day if we want to.

27th April 2009

Got back from our Willow Foundation trip to London yesterday.  The Willow Foundation are simply fantastic.  Everything was organised down to every last detail and went so smoothly.
It was great to spend time with Suzie , S and N and I think it brough Suzie closer to the girls.
We saw Wicked the evening we arrived - which was fantastic.  We went shopping Saturday morning then Suzie and I went to see Billy Elliot - it was great too - I have wanted to see that for years and was not disappointed.  The 4 of us then went to Boxwood Cafe, which is one of Gordon Ramsays restaurants.  The food was delicious, as was the 2 bottle of pink champange we had!!!!!!!!  Think Suzie was a wee bit boozie??!!.  It was my birthday on the Saturday, and at end of meal, N organised for sparklers to come with my pudding and they sang happy birthday - I just cried!!!!  Happy tears tho.
Thank you to the WILLOW FOUNDATION for a fantastic memory.  I intend to raise money in the future so someone else can benefit from this.