Looking Back

I was round at a friends yesterday, and showed him my blog. I then came home and read it from the beginning............jeez I have been through a lot of shit - between my cancer, mum and dad.
I never remember thinking why me? , but I did several times way back. It is just truly amazing how far on I have come mentally, even since the end of last year when I was in a very dark place. The mind is an amazing thing, and given the correct tools, it can heal and move on.

For the past 7 week I have been doing a compassion course, follow on from the mindfulness I did. I do think I have self compassion, and know I have compassion to others, but its just developing this further, and the way I see it, its another tool in my mental box, for when my mind does start down that slippery slope of getting into the black hole again, which is bound to happen one day. We have the last session this afternoon.

Here is something else I found on the Live Laugh Love page on FB...........

I am responsible for the growth and maintenance of mindfulness in my own life. Each day is an opportunity for me to discover deeper truths about myself. Every moment is an invitation for me to grant others the space they need to be themselves. within me exists a world of awe and splendour, and every morning is a reminder of my innate obligation to participate in my own majesty. This life is my inheritance as a human being, and I will claim it by living as fully as I possibly can through mindful and compassionate participation. May any reward I receive be recycled through my service to others............

CT Scan results tomorrow. Will post after that........
xxxx